New Project

It has begun. I'm taking over the garage. What a mess. Hard to believe 1 family can have so much stuff. I plan to have a big sale in the spring and turn that garage into a little shop. Painted furniture, vintage cool stuff, homeschooling and kids stuff. I worked on it , Friday, Saturday and yesterday. Found some cool stuff. Some old furniture that will look cool when I'm done with it. Little shelves I can paint. I really want this to work. I want my own money ,being my own boss, doing things on my terms. Friends are supportive and think my ideas are good. Sarah looked at me like I was crazy. It could work on a small scale I think and that's all I really want.We have lots of vintage cookware, canning stuff, clothes and toys. I think there's enough to get me started. I guess my husband knows if I'm determined to do something he should just stand back. I don't take no very well.... I can't? Just watch me ....I don't think anyone ever reads this but me, maybe occassionally...but if you're out there and have homeschooling materials, or good cool toys you no longer want send them my way...

Lots of Fun

We had our bitchin' in the kitchen party, went very well. A ton of good food and most everyone could come.

Yesterday we went to the zoo. The girls had a wonderful time. It was fun but the zoo it'self really sucks compared to Cincinnati Zoo.

Today we went to the stupid little county fair and spent way too much money for a bunch of crap. I don't think we'll go next year. On second thought if Emily is in 4-H we'll have to.

Oh The Joys of Remodeling

Yesterday I was painting the ceiling and suddenly spilled MUCH paint all over the place ,including all over our brand new range we don't even haver hooked up. Yesterday I spilled a whole big glob of paint right in my eye. I hate painting ceilings! This week we get the new counter tops, then it's finish painting and doing the floors and we'll be done. Getting close.

Shut the Fuck Up

What the hell gave me the idea that remodeling the kitchen would be a good idea with a 2 year old and 7 year old around. They are both being major brats today and I'm ready to knock them into next week. As Cosby said, I brought you into this world I can take you back out.Yeah and don't comment on here that I'm an evil bitch for calling my children brats, and threatening their lives. All children act bratty at one time or another and today they're competeing for who needs to be bitch slapped the most. And yeah I don't actually slap my children so shut the fuck up about that too. It's my blog and if I want to bitch about my children I will. Neither of them are in danger of anything more then missing thier favorite cartoon so ,waah. Yeah I'm pissed, am trying to get a little work done around here and can't get a break from refereeing fights for 5 minutes. Emily's room looks like atornado hit so she is banned to her room until it's clean or no Martha Speaks. Alison has had a time out twice in a 1/2 hour , one for hitting and one for biting. If I don't write and vent I might just spontaneously combust.

One days accomplishments of a menopausal bitch

Well got something done yesterday in spite of my hormones. Emily did a unit on birds, looking them up on the internet, coloring realistic color sheets, listening to their songs, reading her library books, and going to the park and trying to spot some of them. I liked it because it covered Science, Reading, Computer, phys ed and Art all in one shot. Alison got some much need exercise and loved the park.

I painted the new kitchen island black and it looks awesome. Can't wait for it to be done, Ran some errands, did some housework yada yada..

The biggest accomplishment was not biting anyones head off. I feel like shit. No one told me you could get PMS cramping, and hot flashes the same day. What's up with that? It's like the gray hairs and acne. One or the other but not both! Everyone pisses me off. Stupid commercials bring me to tears. I hate this aging crap. Besides the physical discomforts and body changes , it makes me think of time wasted and what I should've accomplished by 47. Geez. What a fool. Life is not a dress rehersal though, there's no going back and chaging anything. This is the life I made , I'm stuck with all my fuck ups. Not that I have a horrible life. I'm married to a good man and have 3 beautiful daughters, we're fine at the moment with this stupid economy. I'm very lucky in some ways. What if things did go to shit though. I was too stupid to finish my degree so if things ever change and I have to return to working fulltime it will likely be some shit job I don't want to do and I have no one to blame but myself. I spent 10 years , young, single, childless and did nothing but survive. No traveling, no degree, no hobbies, nothing. What the hell.

My husband calls this "mean o pause "and is threatening to move into the garage. I'm fine and then it hits me like flipping a switch. I hate the world, pissed at everything and just want everyone to leave me the fuck alone. arghh. I'll get through this and at the other side what do I get? Old age. Oh great, that sure motivates me to tolerate it....